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people talking about the weather over the weekend. it dominated today’s subjects of conversation. tomm, there will be big group doing Walk for Cancer thingy at Berkeley for 18 hours straight, starting from 6am. Some of my friends are going to be in it. Their concerns? Weather… I decided to understand what the heck they were talking today… So i log in to my yahoo to check the weather…. both Berkeley and San Francisco have little red asteriks next to their name….. as i scrolled now, it read “severe wether report expected”…. so the storm is coming this weekend… good luck for those running tomm. im pretty sure they wont cancel the walk if the weather goes bad….. oh well, for a good cause, you people will get something in return…!

earlier, went to make copies of accounting solutions for my homework tommorrow. dont understand why the Prof provided the solutions for us before the homework due… but hey, im not complaining! at least one of my three discussions sections tomm, i dont have to prepare much!….

slept earlier for couple of hours, to be woken up by the routine constant noises my roommate been making….sometimes i hate living in a room with somebody else.. especially if they dun seem to understand the concept of ‘resting’… oh well… there are ‘fun’ times too!

i got my lab results back… the doctor diagnosed me with two things (1) low thyroid (whatever that means) and (2) depression (i nearly laughed when she told me this)…… i even had Burns Depression Checklist given to me to complete…. still have few more tests to go.. but oh well… its just part of the whole things that keep occupying my day…

today, i slept at my last lecture (i.e. investment)… the Prof keeps talking how luck factor is everything in this stock market…. but hey.. the Dow is doing well today…moving up really strong.. my friend picked up quite a sum selling her stocks today.. but me… sad sad… the only biggest gains i have is 49 cents per share.. not even enough to cover the commissions… so gonna wait for a while … i still have around 10% cash margin to play around.. hopin to go down and get some of those biotech shares…

i am goin to do my accounting homework tonight…and there is this irish party goin on friday night in the house.. gonna burn some techno songs so that the DJ can play them for me…

i am depressed?? haha… Doctor, for one time, your profession made lots of sense to me!

goin to doctor now for my medical check up.. apparently doctor found something interesting with my lab results… wondering what they are.. will update soon!

i had my hair cut today. the person who normally cut my hair wasnt there for the first 15 minutes and i opted for this other person, who conveniently putting my hair out of shape…..
lucky he came back and re shape my hair..Now… its so short and i had to rebleach it so that it wont look as bad…..

came back to have my instant noodle.. coz havent had lunch… open my mail.. and to my great surprise, i received an expected email back. doesnt sound good but i guess i have to deal with it….. its part of the past that i am living now but with a new breath and i do it with conscious act. and i never regret the promises i have made and i will try to live with them. i said i am waiting and i will be.. coz thats what deep down inside, i am told to do.

been trying to brush this feeling aside but it kinda stays. the email reaffirmed my thoughts and prayers. and i hope He will give me light and guidance. as hard this might be, it is as plain as it could be. the choice is mine and i have made it. and i am happy with what i have made.

one thing that i want to tell the person who sent me an email “You have made your choice and i respect yours as long as you are happy. My choice again is mine and is independent of yours. And if you think that i am not happy… you are very wrong. i am happy with my choice no matter what it takes. Like you said, only time will tell… and i know now what it takes to make me happy… is to always care for you…in its entirety”

phuihhhh…. set up for this blog finally complete.. havent figured out the archive thingy yet…
probably gonna wait for a week and see how it goes…

to all people who have been trying to contact me here.. sorry….
my mobile contact number is in my laptop.. so it doesnt exist now..
i will try to contact you as soon as i got my laptop back..

also.. please.. if u do contact me, leave ur name (spelled it out) and ur number…
coz my roommate, a German, has difficulties in getting your name…
i had phone call from Australia, Indonesia, Malaysia, Singapore and God knows which countries…
without clear name and no number.. how am i supposed to call u back????????????

anyway….. im going to do some accounting and investment readings now….
will update this thing soon.. on what is happening with me so far…
im so glad that this is finally up.. and yes Johann , u r right, blog makes it so much easier if you do not have access to your files in ur computer……:P

Finally i use this blog thingy…. people has been asking me why i havent updated my site… the answers is… i cant… coz my laptop is down and all my files are in that laptop….. i just sent my laptop by UPS yesterday ago to this place about 8 hours drive from here.. I reckoned they have to replace the keyboard… and it will take about at least 2 weeks before its fully functional.. perhaps i should have used blogger right from the start… oh wells…. its not to late to start hey?…

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