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i have case study due tomm and melb uni site is down. i have no access to the subject page and am lazying around in front of the computer, trying to read 10 pages of this merged company somewhere on the other part of the world….Im still deciding whether i should do this case study. The tutor told us that he will only collect 4 case study in a semester… thats 4 out of 12. He collected one in the second tute… tomm is the third tute… by right, it shouldnt be collected tomm but then you have this fear and never ending questions of ‘what if’…. the feeling is similar to gettin on the tram without validatin the tram ticket.. you know that the chances of gettin caught is pretty slim.. probably about 3 out of 10, but you feel guilty enough and decide to grab those loose change to have a fear-free 5 minutes ride…. damn those 5 minutes… and damn this waiting period until tomm’s tute…..

Adrian is now in Adelaide, trying to secure budget for the IS department. he has this new nokia phone you can use icq on… he is online… i msged him, but he didnt reply.. i suppose they must be in an intense meeting.

Being resourceful as usual, i just asked my friend to bring me all past answers to tute questions from last semester. apparently they are for the same questions…. it might give me a head start from the rest…. (yea right tedy, dun be naive, everybody is doin the same thing!!)

its so funnie, i asked my friend what she is duin…and she is duin the same thing as me. conversation went like:

tedsta.com: wat u duin
Bread bread bread everyday…… -__-;: blogging
Bread bread bread everyday…… -__-;: u haf blogg
tedsta.com: u have blog??
tedsta.com: yea
tedsta.com: im bloggin too now
Bread bread bread everyday…… -__-;: haha
Bread bread bread everyday…… -__-;: cool
Bread bread bread everyday…… -__-;: give me urs

life is so predictable!

This is a quotable quote from Megawati’s speech on the 25th Anniversary of PDIP (Indonesian Democratic Party of Struggle). This was the message to her from her father, Sukarno, the first Indonesian President…

“…. Anakku, simpan segala yang kau tahu. Jangan ceritakan deritaku dan sakitku kepada rakyat, biarkan aku yang menjadi korban asal Indonesia tetap bersatu. Ini aku lakukan demi kesatuan, persatuan, keutuhan dan kejayaan bangsa. Jadikan deritaku ini sebagai kesaksian, bahwa kekuasaan seseorang presiden sekalipun ada batasnya. Karena kekuasaan yang langgeng hanyalah kekuasaan rakyat dan diatas segalanya adalah kekuasaan Tuhan Yang Maha Esa !….”

translated to:

“…..My child, keep all these things in your heart. Don’t speak of my suffering and illness to the people. Let me be sacrificed, if unity in Indonesia is achieved. Let my life inspire unity, harmony, oneness, and the noble spirit of our people. Let my suffering become a witness that even the power of the president has its limits. Lasting power must be held by the people and only God Almighty is Omnipotent.”

i prolly look like this if im a character in southpark…

Make your own southpark figure here

National Convenor’s quote on the state of National Liaison Committee for International Students in Australia, Inc. as an organisation:

phuih… that was a long weekend… i had meeting that never seems to finish… but we did it in the end.. the first time nat exec finished every single agenda items….and by far the most productive meetings…

today i missed all my classes… damn… too tired… have to go to replacement classes…. grrr… oh well… no biggie…

now there are so many things i have to finish up:
-minutes from the meetings
-notices
-planning for few trips…

arhhhhh….. why this work never seem to end!

i havent slept and my bloody assignment finally finished. i sent it again to my project manager. dont u think its a crime to have an assignment in the second week of uni. in the mean time, i am waiting for P to arrive from Perth, its an hour away and there is no way i could wake up if i decided to sleep. i went earlier to the skybus terminal, only to realise that there is no 4.30am bus. so i decided to go back home and wait for the 5.00 bus. its 13′ outside, there is no way im goin to wait 45 minutes outside….

waitin..waitin..waitin….

btw, its national exec weekend…..gonna be really interestin

I got this email… and its true!!

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Hey… try this!

Bill Gate can’t even explain this… Open a blank Word document and type the following: =rand(200,99) and then Press ‘Enter’ and wait 5 seconds… Surprise…

i dont think life is easy. i dont agree with the statement ‘life is easy till you make it hard on yourself’. I think life is generally hard and you have to make it simpler for yourself. This is reality. Enough of all the excuses that we actually make it hard on ourselves. We are not. We are capable human being equipped with brain, an intelligent device. We know its hard since we were born. We cried remember?? Because we know its hard. Our mothers have to endured 9 months of labour not because it is simple, but because its hard. Only us, ourselves who can make it simpler. Society wants us certain way. Thats the hard part but it is up to us to make it simpler on ourselves, to conform or to go along. Both choices are hard choices but it will be simpler for our mind if we know what we want, despite the hard roads ahead.

So come on, stop bullshitting that life is simple and we make it harder. there is no such thing. Simplifying something is our role and duty. But oversimplify is disastrous too. So i guess life is hard.. hahaha.. and im trying to make it simpler and so should you!

today was one of the suckiest day of this year so far….. i was feeling dizzy becoz of it. it started off with me rushing to find dry cleaners for my dunos. so i grabbed a cab, off to carlton and realised that it was Labour Day and all non touristy shops were closed…… so i asked the lady driver to drive me to Myer instead. Guess what, the escalator wasnt working and i was carrying dirty dunos around while looking for the lift. When i was on the third floor, there was a big sign in front of the dry cleaner again CLOSED.

so i went down rushin and it was like 2pm (i had a class at 2.15) and when i was about to get on the cab, there were two bloody chinese guys who didnt see me and get the only cab left standing in front of Myer. Everybody around waiting for the pedestrian light gave me a sympathy smile….. i returned their gestures with a couple of nods and frantic smile.

when i got the taxi, the cabbie couldnt speak english properly and was such a terrible driver…. i got really dizzy even when i sat on the front seat….i decided to make a two trip to my apartment and then to uni ( i wasnt goin to bring dirty dunos to uni). he wasnt really pleased with waiting… hey, the last time i checked, the meter was running!!!

im really looking forward to the end of this week… and i dun like the stuff that gonna happen in between…..this gonna be one of the tough week in March..and im already dreading…. case study due on thurs, assignment due on saturday, couple of graduate applications and not to mention, the national exec meeting on the weekend…..

have u ever had a moment when you just HATE yourself and what you are doing right now??? im in that kinda crazy mode. and you feel like the whole world is just against you including people who are dear to you…. and you can feel the sky is already crumbling, ready to hit you right on the face….ajslfdhlaksjdflhualireuaiwherhuwaioueiaheruhawioeu hwiuerhiuhirueaiwheriwaueriwhaerhawirehwalehr…………yea.. thats how i am feeling now.. and at this moment, how i wish i wasnt born! i think for sure, the world would be a better place.

you know what my disease is, insomnia….i find it very hard to sleep…. i dunno why… sometimes im physically very tired… but my mind and brain just keeps running…….doest want to stop… thinking about stuffs all over the place… if there is a database administrator, they would resign before figuring out how to sort the data being transferred in my brain…. i shall see doctor and shrink soon….(again?????)… hopefully this time, they will give me sleeping pills… they didnt want to last time… scared that i would be dependent on it…. but i am already suffering…. maybe i shall go crazy again this time when they said no… the last time i did, they just ignored and waited for me to calm down….oh well… this time, i aint givin up

i sometimes wonder, why are we so curious enough to find out whether there is life in Mars. I guessed our intellectual curiosity made us great, but at what cost to the human civilization? Recently, the two rovers currently doing patrols in Mars have found more and more evidence of water’s existence in the red planet. As they said, for life to exist, there must be water source. So, it can be inferred that if water is found, there is higher probability that life has existed before.

Well, logically, could earth be the only habitable planet out of so many thousands planets in many galaxies that are yet to be discovered? Could our planet be the only one?? There ‘must’ be other life, perhaps in other forms out there. One wonders whether they have higher intellectual capacity than us. Perhaps they are already trying to attack us. Maybe they are those viruses such as AIDS or SARS. Will you know?

But what continue to amuse me is not the actual phenomenon. But the drive, led by America to ‘conquer’ the red planet. Bush has recently encouraged NASA to send the first man to Mars. NASA with its politically correct term define the project succinctly, ‘this is not a race, this is a journey’. I wonder to what? And when asked about the cost, they refused to give a number even a ballpark figure. But speculation has been raised that the cost to America or the world is as little as US$600 billion. Or lemme try to put the zeros, US $600,000,000,000. What the hell??????

Imagine what they can do with the money here in our planet, which clearly HAS life already. They forget that we are far assured from the ability to survive. And ironically, they cant even ‘manage’ Iraq, who clearly has life forms, the same species, with the same brain capability…. and thinking about managing Mars??? They forget that in some parts of the world, living on a US$1 a day is already a big blessing. Some people now are still thinking how their next meal gonna come to the table……..This is just outrageous!!!!!!!!

No, i believe that human should reach its potential. But this is not a question of should we go to Mars? It is more of the question WHEN should we go to Mars??? Priorities Mr Bush and NASA. Let us try to build peace in this world, let us try to make our species a better species than the rest, let us help each other to survive, then we talk about going to another Planet. What is in their mind? Perhaps, America is trying to find more lands there…. maybe part of their grandplan is to move out all the Americans to be Martians instead….. Goodness, sometimes i wonder, whether God gave them too much of brain powers or less of?