night’s silence kept me awake. i couldnt rest my eyes. my thoughts are on different predicaments that i dont even want to start thinking.
all that is left has gone. i have no more to look for. at least for now. apart from the usual hate-love exam story.
double life i have lived and double life i would continue to live. i cannot seem to find the meeting point. they are set parallel to each other and they will always be. any tangent to both will cause unbalanced and dramatic impacts on the yin and yang. maybe it is double jeopardy.
everyone seems to have mind their own things. i am a man of empathy. cry sickens me yet cry enlightens me. what a sick bastard i am.
attention seekers are on my highest list of evil characters. may they burn in hell. i dont even know what my soul is shouting now. it is quite loud but cannot be deciphered. too vaque. reality is hard to face.
dream on. nothing to stop you. even though it is just a thought. i cannot offer a price nor can i auction it. it is there for a reason.
as i posted earlier: [april 03,2003]
down down down you all sinners. faced with terminal decision but care for earthly desire and pleasure stop you. this is how far you have been and this is where things gonna stop revolving. pick up that gun and smell the smoke coz that day, you will wear a true smile you have been wanting to have and say ‘i did it’ for the first time in your life