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i have been contemplating before whether or not to install ADSL at home. now that i have installed it, my worst fear is proven to be true. i so wish now i have never installed it. i think once this contract is finished, i wont continue again, thats like another one and half month. but its alright. its better that way. people will never learn despite your occasional bickerings. i would rather be the most mean person rather than see them fall slowly to their death. this is even despite their initial remorse of previous failures. why dont they use God-gifted brain?? i guess, they will never know how to use it properly.

If you are constanntly using your computer, or sometimes, your computer have too much idle time, it is time to donate your computer processing time while its not doing anything for important researches that is happening around the world.

I myself signed up for Seti@home from Berkeley. And i also helped through Google, to folding@home run by Stanford.

I list down below the links to the site where you can pick and choose which research you want to help. They come with nice screensavers toO!!! so, please start donatinG!

Ann’s World of Microbes – Donate Your Computer: “Folding@home – Their goal is, ‘to understand protein folding, protein aggregation, and related diseases.’

Seti@home – ‘SETI@home is a scientific experiment that uses Internet-connected computers in the Search for Extraterrestrial Intelligence (SETI). You can participate by running a free program that downloads and analyzes radio telescope data.’

Grid.org ‘Grid.org is a single destination site for large-scale research projects powered by the United Devices grid computing solution, Grid MP Global. With the participation of over 2 million devices worldwide, grid.org projects like Cancer Research, Anthrax Research, and the new Smallpox Research Project have achieved record levels of processing speed and success.’

Mersenne.org – ‘You could discover one of the most coveted finds in all of Mathematics – a new Mersenne prime number. We’ve found five already. Join in on this fun, yet serious research project. All you need is a personal computer, patience, and a lot of luck.’

Parabon.com – ‘To empower cancer researchers, and recycle your computer’s idle time.’

FightAIDS@home ‘We are working together with other laboratories here at Scripps and elsewhere, to design, synthesize and test new HIV protease inhibitors that are better than existing drugs in defeating the virus’s ability to develop drug resistance.’

Climateprediction.net ‘The climateprediction.net experiment has been developed to allow a state-of-the-art climate prediction model to be run on home/ school/ work computers. By getting data from thousands of climate models, we will generate the world’s largest climate prediction experiment.’

Evolutionary-research.org – ‘Has everybody to become an evolutionary biologist? No. While sc”

i had my first paper on enterprise performance management today. bloody long paper. reading time was 1/2 hour and the actual paper was for 3 hours. overall, i reckoned i did okay, even though towards the end, i was rushing the paper. i left 1/2 hour early, because i always cant stand the exam venue for some reason, maybe it costs me few marks, oh well… i was too tired, havent slept at all… and the place was freezing!!

after exam, i made a quick tiring trip to Big W to get cat litters for chester and sasha and bought few room refreshers…i konked out immediately as i reached home and now i am still blurry… contemplating whether to start audit or not… the paper is on tue. and my parents are coming over to oz over the weekend. i think they would make a two day trips to sydney first before heading down to melb…they havent got the complete itinerary so they have no idea when they will see us….i havent seen them for 2 1/2 years… wow.. that is a long time..haha..

two of my norwegian friends came over just now, asking me to join a group of 20-odd exchange students from st hilda college for karaoke… i really wanted to go, skulling some southern and coke would be nice… but the guilt thing is workin well on me… despite, im too exhausted. terje is leaving melb for good to continue his study in university of southampton, UK, after this semester. i really hope i could catch up with him after my exam.

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yesterday, reagan died at the age of 93. he was an actor-turned-president under a republican ticket. his term was full of controversies (reaganomics in particular: deregulation, huge tax cuts, slash on welfare). But he was the first modern republican president who redefined what republican stands for, trumping all over democrats who were scrambling to get their acts together. when he left office, handing over power to Bush Sr, he was the most popular president ever in the opinion polls in american history.

he was well known for ending the cold war, and was commonly associated with ‘oversimplification’ of matters. he touched and lifted up american pride no presidents before him could do, especially after America’s shock defeat in vietnam.

without a doubt, he was a man of controversies. his supporters and critics were mixed over his government’s influence to america and the rest of the world.

he is also the great communicator. He survived an assasination attempt while giving a speech at a Washington hotel. Reassuring Nancy, he said “Nancy, honey, I forgot to duck”. As he entered the surgery room, he calmly asked the doctors, “Please tell me you’re Republicans.”

one thing for sure, he is now a great legacy in American history. and i pay tribute to him with his closing speech as the president:

“When the Lord calls me home, whenever that day may be, I will leave with the greatest love for this country of ours and eternal optimism for its future. I now begin the journey that will lead me into the sunset of my life. I know that for America there will always be a bright dawn ahead.”

the Gipper, Rest in Peace.

15 years ago, people around the world saw something bloody at their television screen. little they realise that a big revolution was going on in the world’s biggest communist country. it was the Tiananmen Square Tragedy.

until today, the world will always remember those who sacrifice their lives for freedom and democracy. as one of the famous chinese writer, Lu Xun, put it, “This is not the conclusion of an incident, but a new beginning. Lies written in ink can never disguise facts written in blood.”

but the same world is soo much poised with ‘western values’ of democracy. democracy that is tainted with soo much biasness. the same biasness that were shown towards many democratic countries around the world, whether it is the American or the Australian government. Democracy as they see is the way of governing that are suitable to them, the people that they prefer to be in charge or bluntly, ‘Western-friendly-dictator’ is better than ‘Democratically-elected-representative’ who might be in disagreement with those Western governments.

Richard Woolcott put it nicely in this paragraph:

“Having advocated the spread of democracy, as the Howard Government has done, it is unreasonable to criticise the outcome of a fair election, as Howard and Alexander Downer took it upon themselves to do after the recent election in Spain. It is unreasonable to promote the cause of democracy and then oppose its outcomes.”

This kind of double-standard will continue in the future. But we shall wait for the rise of the giant China, who is slowly being feared by the American for challening its world’s only superpower status. Afterall, America champions competition, so with its gradually-dissapearing natural monopoly, how far will America go with its foreign policy to ensure the curb on China’s rising stature? America is so accustomed to be the ONLY superpower and the thought of losing it, is the kind of slap that America does not need now or in the next decade. But China is a sleeping giant. it will not be awaken unless its disturbed. And the only way the two can be at collision course is over one small island, the renegade province of Taiwan (as China likes to refer it as).

i have been thinking about death for the past couple of days. that morbid thought is usually accompanied with several unanswered questions, such as:

-how would you end your life if you have a choice?
-how does it feel when you die?
-is there life after death?
-and so on and so on…

i keep asking whether i have done enough ‘good points’ which will grant me the express laneway to Heaven, bypassing the purgatory. What if God says “Tedy you have 24 hours before i take your life”. To be really honest, i wouldnt know how i would feel… The only thing that i can imagine myself doing is:

-set a stop watch to 24 hours period and
-eating as much nastar and hoka hoka bento as i can
-call up all my family members
-call up all my friends and loved one
-pay off all my debts
-apologise to everybody…

can i finish it off in 24 hours? i wonder…but of course, God hasnt even promised us tommorrow! What a mistery of life.

i have a cordless mouse and most of the times i take it for granted. today, in between of me reading the news digest for the day, just before i reluctantly set my self up for the most boring task of the day (i.e. study), it dies on me. the battery needs to be replaced.

for most of us, we take its functionality without even a blink. but have u ever imagined what happen if it stoppped from workin one day? how would you use your computer? we become so dependent on it. i still remember the day i was first introduced to a mouse. i hated it. i didnt know how to use it and most of the programs that i was using then, didnt require mouse pointer or mouse clicks. its all arrow-based instructions.. To think about it… the arrows must be really jealous of the mouse. They are not used as frequently as they were used to….Even when typing this blog, i used enter to move on to the next paragraph and backspace to go back… and most of the times, my mouse is ready to point me whereever i want to go in the screen…..

but i have been wary for being too reliant. i master myself some keyboard shortcuts which comes in handy when my mouse is on strike just like today…..the question is… what happen if your keyboard is on strike??? i dont even want to try to begin to understand….

Geriiiiii….. i heard that you have been reading my blog.. Where is the courtesy to leave a comment or sayin hi even in the guestbook! Ha ha… i bet i caught u by surprise now.. oh well..

Anyway… i have been quite relax in the past few days in terms of studying… im more worried now about the fact that my parents are coming over here!!! I have already done my hair to a more respectable colour….Now its spring cleaning time for the apartment… (i will do that over the weekend)….

Gorilla called earlier. He asked about those empty boxes to fill up all the junks u have accummulated while studyin here. Well… why me? Coz i have lots of them.. ahaa.. its kinda sad to see another person leave the country.. They are gone one by one… and soon it would be me…so when is your turn?

Was readin CNN today and Kwame Jackson who was fired under ‘The Apprentice’ is getting another ‘we dont need you’ from Trump’s Miss Universe show. He was offered the job to be a judge in the panel. However, he was dismissed as he ‘waved’ to the contestants which somehow breach the ‘no interaction’ rule. Poor him…. Dont play around with Trump. Once you are fired, you are fired all over.

what a long weekend…. came back from Adelaide last nite and i was too exhausted to even blog…

Adelaide was cold….. The conference was great with almost all incoming obs getting filled up…. Thanks to Sky, Huey, Regi, John, Michael, Fei Ling, Louisa, FISA ppl and so many others who have made my workin trip enjoyable!!

I have just finished the NLC national accounts and they have been audited by the national internal auditor…. thanks to Eli for stayin up late with me…..im not looking forward to another nite like this… numbers are still flyin in front of my eye lenses…

Tomm have to go to office to finalise any conference stuff before i submerge myself to STUDY MODE…..Hope things would be ok…

Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS Y!!!!! (tried callin you but realise that your mobile was stolen!!)… Hope you have a good one and a good year ahead!

Signin off!!! (with chester on the table analysing my typin skill…hihi)