Dear soul,
I have been wanting to ask you for the past few weeks why are you so restless? Sure, you have been moody and stuff, but i just dont get it. You must have been confused. You told me last time that ‘life is hard until you make it simpler yourself’. I tried that, it didnt work.
While it is entirely within your own rights to behave and act in this way, you must understand the physical constraints you have put in me. My biological clock is turned upside down. You cant stop working and thinking and i cant sleep. I have been wanting to sleep at around 2am but you forced me awake until 9am in the morning. This has created an unbalanced lifestyle that i do not foresee i would be able to sustain in the long term.
Obviously, you must be sick. I really don’t know whats up with you? But could i beg you through this public space, that you stop whatever you are doing. This is not good for us. You need me and i need you. It’s as simple as that. Dont make it more complicated than it already is. Im barely able to sustain what i have now.
The thing is, i have about 1 month left before my tertiary study ends. While i am not really looking forward to see whats there for me next year, i want you to calm down for the next one month, at the very least. That way, i can focus on my last semester, finish my assignments on time, ace my final papers, and we can then discuss this further.
I guess, im not making anymore sense, am I? Anyway, if you want to talk to me, you know how to reach me (you are good at that you know)….
Thanks anyway…. drop me a note now and then, will ya?
cheers,
your other vain’s half