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we live in a funny world. we meet strangers, share a period of time together and become friends. later on, we part our ways, not knowing where and when we will meet again. we temporarily forget about them as we get bogged down with daily routines.

i got to catch up with Sue Hooi after not knowing where she was all this while – through MSN. the beauty of technology (or partly because ive abandoned it all this while.. oops).

she told me something funny about age and life – something she holds true. verbatim:

guys older they get more demand in market. gals older they get less demand… love n work life. so u should be happy u r getting older!

this is one facet of life i have yet to have a rock solid opinion on.

it’s been a while since i last wrote. i find solace in keeping ideas sorted out in my head rather than blurting them as i used to. this is bad. not because i’m afraid of what might have been transcribed, but my goldfish memory is a good reason why i have to keep my blog alive.

for the past few months, i have caught up with people whom i thought i will never meet again (because i dont even know where they are). Mike was one of them. all thanks to FB – of course.

the next few weeks will be interesting. Yvette sent me a message yesterday about the crazy checkpoints in Srilanka just so she could meet with her UN supervisor. I replied that it’s no different here. Pretty much a police state with fences erected everywhere in the city. Driving is quite a nightmare but i wont even start. How i wish i could get out of town next week – bar the ’stupid’ CFA course.

i must stop being complacent. because this kinda feeling makes you lazy. sometimes, being relaxed could be a thing you used to justify. but i dont think that this should apply. but hey, you’re pretty much talking to a guy who thinks that sleep is a waste of time.

i was watching grey’s anatomy last nite when the main theme got me thinking – ‘people are what matters’. it’s so true.

over the past 10 years, i only have friends for my sounding board. living away from family forced you to build your own network of dependence. you have a select few whom you place your great trust and confidence in. you somehow hoping that they are there no matter how rough circumstances present.

the funny thing is, sometimes, taking them for granted are easier despite your best efforts not to. surely you have minor incidents every now and then. but if you focus on what unites rather than what divides, you will realise that truly the value of your friendship is what keeps you going in life – at least most of the times.

perhaps adjusting who, how and why you relate to a certain individual takes a lot of courage and to some extent dissapointment. but we have to do that to revise our own and their expectations on how we see each other as independent individual and as a unit trying to complement each other on whatever we do.

i just hope that i always be reminded of those moments in life when you strongly feel that those friends are among other things in life that makes you want to continue living and keeps you going even when times are tough.

thank you.

i reneged on my earlier promise. my retirement from the dance floor seems to be premature at best. hardcore trance from sublime on one night and ministry of sounds on the next have taken toll to my now precious weekends. but the good companies negate all the blisters and painful side effects. next in calendar is futures.

Over the induction, one of divisional head gave the key things he wants to see from new hire: passion, skills and dissatisfaction. it struck cord with me. passion and skills are the key theme that’s constant throughout the leader’s perspective. the CEO has blurted out the mantra, in order to be successful, you not only have to enjoy what you are doing or be good at what you are doing, but you have to have both. it’s so true.

but the third part is what blew me away. i thought i have always been a pessimist (and to some extent i still see that i am), dissatisfaction with self is what truly describe me. while greed is easily the markers for the borderlines, i always try to tread thin within the confines.

i hope it will lead me somewhere better

i have no internet connection.

will be back soon with updates.

i just realised that a few weeks ago, i barely scratched the surface of my junks… for those who claim that packing and moving is easy..i call your bull right now!

my apartment is in a total organised chaos. the only carpet in sight is the the naturally evolving footpath about 5 cm wide. surrounding them are rubbish and my stuffs in categorised piles….

and it’s already the third day!

i knew that this would happen. when you pretty much on holidays, you work your schedules based on different important events coming up. my palm has already been decommissioned early as the only 5.30 Sunday’s appointment that has been a constant fixture no longer warrants the use of it to help me remember. the rest is a mixture of last minute appointments, problems, phone calls and frantic emails.

today, things are a bit more settled even though its not really the end. just a quick recap, i have found our new accommodation and is currently waiting for a contract to be signed. the rent is quite on the upside, but u can’t really compare it with melbourne’s rent prices.

i also attended yvette’s farewell party (she’s seconding to Thailand for 3 months) where we also had a little reunion of the lovely berkeley people. yuki was also there and he came down to melbourne for two days where we spent our time visiting the locals. healesville sanctuary and penguin parade were on his agenda and we’re lucky enough to have weather-permitting conditions to visit those two places.

my ferrari was also on strike. i had to send it for repair and it’s another 3 days before a quote is produced for the go-ahead-to-fix-it decision.

in the mean time, i find a bit of solace from a temporary downtime. toll transition was kindly enough to send me the boxes early. in a 36 degrees day like today, even the lowest temperature provided by the aircon doesnt give the slightest incentive in me continuing to pack up my stuff. i know i have to do it now for procrastination will bear a hefty price. but i want an interim stopgap from all the topsy-turvy and helter-skelter of chaotic change, even if it’s only for a few solid hours.

i received an unexpected email from Yuki by accident a couple of days ago. apparently he is now in south pole doing what he loves best…. the telescope stuff…i can never understand fully as im handicapped when it comes to physics…i know he wants to be an astronaut and i hope he does…

anyway.. he is visiting australia after his south pole’s posting and probably to melbourne. it will be good to catch up with him after more than 3 years… we did the skype call earlier today, but given the outdated weather satellite down there, we had trouble communicating….he promised me to bring some snow from down there hahha even though he doubted it would be a successful venture..(apparently he tried that last year!)

oh.. of slightly surprising in nature too, i received another unexpected sms few hours after the midnight mass. i didnt know she still did remember me… but i restrained myself from replying after such a bad incident this year… some things are better left as it is…